M for Menopause
Yes it's been looming for a while me thinks but what do we take when the symptoms take hold? I've been suffering from a few menopausal symptoms just lately....I flush bright red when in the middle of conversations, sweat at night, my mind is a bit fuzzy (some say no change there then) but what I've struggled with most, just lately is anxiety and panic attacks.
I can handle my bed resembling a scene from Titanic......I do feel I'm hanging onto to a bit of driftwood while slowly sliding into my own ocean of sweat. No orchestra to accompany me sinking into my soaking sheets but hey, I live to sweat again and sheets, well they wash.
I'm not even to fussed about my face flushing bright red as I can just say 'sorry it's my age you know'. Standing next to the beetroot in Tesco you wouldn't even see me anyway......great disguise.
What I can't be doing with though is the feeling of anxiety. It's an awful feeling like my heart is going to just beat right out of my body. It kind of feels like a massive big void inside that is so tense it sets of a panic that stops me from thinking I can carry on with normal every day tasks. It seems to be a morning thing which makes sense if it's a hormone surge I suppose. I have set off in the morning to take my son to college and had to turn around and come back because the thought of carrying on my journey just filled me with dread.
Those who have experienced this will know how it feels and how frustrating it can feel. Why would I feel this way? There is not reason for it. I'm telling it to go away, talking to myself like a woman possessed. I just think telling myself to stop being silly might help, having a strong word with myself, well quite a few actually and some are swear words.
I don't want to take medication if I can help it, I'm not a big fan so I'm trying to find natural ways to beat all this. I asked around and was recommended some supplements. There are many on the market and I suppose it maybe a case of trying different ones to see which works.
It's to early to tell whether these Menosan Menopause Support supplements work yet as I've only just starting taking them so I may have to come back to this topic. I probably will talk about it again as I think it's good to help each other through these times and it may be around for a while yet. It's a period of a woman's life that can either be quite easy or debilitating and depressing so we need to talk about it. It's part of the cycle of life.....or 'circle of life' and yes I just sang the song in my head, Elton would have been so proud.
These supplements are quite pricey at £11.98 for 60 capsules and it advises one capsule twice a day but when you're anxious you'll try anything, well almost. I bought them very quickly from Amazon discreetly online, I say discreetly because if I'm honest and I had been in a real shop I would have been the customer shouting "give me something for the menopause and give it to me NOW!!!" Grabbing every herbal tea and herbal herbs going. There would be a very excited cashier, about 20 years old with painted on eyebrows, clearly not going through the menopause saying....."that will be £154.95 Sue from the Brew, enjoy your menopause". Thank goodness for Amazon.
Here is the link (affiliated) to this product in case you're like me and need to try bit of natural help. The details are all on product page but like I say it is a bit of a trial thing as one thing that works for one person doesn't alway work for another so we'll see.
Thank you for reading today and please let me know what has worked for you through the menopause, like I say it's good to help each other. Join me again tomorrow for my Verse for Thursday but for now take care.
What to Buy Wednesday
From May 2020 I will be writing a poem about something I may have purchased or would like to purchase.