Anxiety

I had my first anxiety attack a couple of years ago now and it involved me having a quick visit to A&E. I'm not kidding when I say it felt as if I was having a heart attack, I had no idea what anxiety felt like having not suffered before. Just lately I've had a lot for episodes and it's made me feel really awful. I don't feel as though I'm particular worried about anything, well nothing more than usual or stressed about a situation but it just comes on with no warning. 

I have some tablets I can take on the onset of an attack and that usually sorts it for a while but I'm not one who likes to take medication. It was just the other day that someone asked me if I still did my walking, I would walk for an hour every day during the summer. Just recently I haven't been walking at all. It's not always easy this time of year because of the weather and dark nights but I made myself go again just for half an hour and it felt so good. All the tense feelings I had have over the past few days just disappeared. So I'm going to make an effort and try and keep up with it as the exercise is obviously helping.

My Anxiety gave me my inspiration for my verse today.......

Anxiety can be a real shocker
unless your on the end of a beta blocker
The medicine, it works for a while
but I hate that it takes away my smile

It appears for reasons unknown
can make me feel I'm so alone
My insides are gripped in the tightest vice
the experience is really not very nice

Frustration is apparent as I don't want this
I want it to go and feel some release
Approaching fifty, wait while I search for a cause
It's obvious, I'm heading for the menopause

With my sleep as fast as a wink
and my reproductive system on the blink
I'll get through this stage
oh welcome I guess to middle age

Now I may have found my solution
early days or maybe an illusion
Walking has made me feel at ease
It's exercise I need for me to please

It may work or it may not
for now though it's all I've got
Calm where once panic had bin'
This is a battle I tend to win


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